Mom

Mom is not doing well & hospice will be taking over. I'm scared and really sad. I hope we are making the right decisions for her. I'm just not sure about anything and can't think clearly. I went to sign the papers tonight and at that very moment, I had memories of growing up at my old house with mom....and thinking who knew I would one day be signing her hospice papers. It was just a very surreal moment for me. I still feel like a kid sometimes and would always go to my mom for support.They won't be taking her back to the hospital and will give her drugs for comfort measures only. I tried to give her some soup tonight but she only ate a few bites and she is choking on water. Liquids can go into her lungs and everything has to be thickened before she can consume. They feel she has pneumonia but can't perform xrays because of the hospice. What floored me was to find out that she's lost 68 pds. since October. I knew she lost a lot of weight but didn't know it was that much.